Seriously my dudes, if you need medication, you’re no less an artist for taking them. The idea that you need to be depressed, suffering, or otherwise in poor mental health to be an artist of any form is horribly wrong and terrifyingly pervasive. When I was on anti-depressants, I was writing a chapter every three days. Now that I’m off (a complex series of circumstances), I can barely summon the will to write, not to mention the effects it’s had on my life otherwise.
Get help, your health and well-being are far more important than anything else.